I spent the past week reminiscing, thinking back to when I was a first time mom and Ally was the age that Amelia is now and I must say, there aren't that many things I would do too differently. I loved Ally to pieces the way I do Amelia (and Tre and Sophia), I just don't worry as much about the little things. For instance, this morning a felt a small bump on the back of Amelia's head and felt confident that its a normal little bump that probably will not be there when I check again tomorrow. Flash back to finding the same little knot on Ally's noggin and I would be calling Dr. Larkin just knowing that he would meet me at St Jude ASAP. Don't get me wrong, I still worry, I just worry in a sane way.
This past week Tre and Sophia were going to VBS from 9 - 12:30; then Tre stayed at Hope until 5:30 for sports camp when I picked Sophia up at 12:30, all the while Ally was away at her first camp; gone for 6 days with no communication with momma and poppa bear; hence, another reason for my reminiscing mood. I'm always afraid that I am going to handle a situation wrong with one of my children and then something is going to happen to one of them and I will never get the chance to rectify what I did. Any body else struggle with this? Anyway, back to my story...
She was so excited! When we were getting ready on Sunday to take her, I was busy making sure she had everything she needed packed while trying to make sure everyone was showered and looking their best for dropping big sister off and Sophia didn't want to get in the shower, "but I had one yesterday" she complained, to which Ally told her after I left the room "do what mom says, you can't ruin what might be the best day of my life". I only know this because while I was showering, Sophia decided to join me and I asked her what changed her mind about getting clean and she told me the above story. Made me smile, thinking about how much this meant to Ally to get to go away for camp and sealed in my mind that she was ready to venture out on her own for a few days and that everything was gonna be OK. At that point I was taken back to camp when I was a kid, not really sure what to expect the first time around, but so excited.
When we entered the Pinecrest gate, I was flooded with memories of MSYC, I only went twice, but I gained so much from those two weeks. I told Ally she would feel so close to God while she was there, or at I least I hope she did. We always sounded like the most beautiful chorus when we would sit out and sing early in the morning or in the evening when the sun was going down: blue skies and rainbows and sunbeams from heaven....
Anyway, we picked up a very tired Ally yesterday and we are all so glad she is home! I just wish that she would wake up! Night Owl camp makes for a very pooped eleven year old.
Amelia update, this little girl is a firecracker! Everywhere I go, everyone is smitten with her big smile and dimple. She is one of those that makes everyone around her smile. I am always smiling because people are always smiling at us(her, but I like to say us). She has a mouth full of teeth and working on four more! That will make 10 total, that's a lot for a 9 month old. She stands and cruises around the furniture, lets go and stands alone for 4 or 5 seconds at a time . For some reason she loves to pinch and bite at me,and only me, has the loudest, shrillest squeal I have EVER heard and loves to dance when she hears music and gets so excited when it is time for a bottle and her nap, "Ni, Ni" she says and smiles and soon as I lay her in her wonderful crib she rolls to her left side, pops the bottle in her mouth and she is down for the count.
I know that I am blessed with the family I have been given. It can be hard at times, but it is so worth it. I can't imagine my life without the craziness that comes with being the mother of four health and happy children. They are who I am!
I am thankful to be married to Art, he is a wonderful, husband, friend and father. He is the epitome of what a dad should be and tomorrow on Father's Day and as always, we will thank him for being ours!
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